Like a descendant from the sky,
you appeared,
my angel, my shooting star.
Steps by steps,
as u edged closer,
the sight of you,
took my breath away.
Such a look,
I'd die a thousand times,
just to have another glimpse of it.
Then u left,
without a chance,
for me to bid farewell.
A fortnight,
a fortnight before the next sighting,
a fortnight, which crafts the 3 words deeper in my heart,
a fornight, i can't imagine how long it actually means to me.
Friday, June 20, 2008
Thursday, June 12, 2008
When it bites
Sigh.
It hit me hard. Perhaps it's a waking call for me. To remind me that i need to buckle up.
Will I?
Well for a start my car doesn't even has a buckle seat, so how am i supposed to buckle up for the coming challenges in my race track?
Looks like its going to be a one way road to hell.
God, please give me the strength for the remaining 2 laps.
God, I want to make them proud.
Can I?
I can only hope, and try harder.
* What can you see if a glass with half its volume filled with water is placed in front of you?
I see a half empty glass now.
It hit me hard. Perhaps it's a waking call for me. To remind me that i need to buckle up.
Will I?
Well for a start my car doesn't even has a buckle seat, so how am i supposed to buckle up for the coming challenges in my race track?
Looks like its going to be a one way road to hell.
God, please give me the strength for the remaining 2 laps.
God, I want to make them proud.
Can I?
I can only hope, and try harder.
* What can you see if a glass with half its volume filled with water is placed in front of you?
I see a half empty glass now.
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Sunday, April 20, 2008
"In the effort of reaching the moon, man failed to see the flower that blossomed at their feet"
How often is it that in life, we come across this thing called love? How often isit that we are presented with the opportunity to love a soul whole heartledly, and to be loved equally in return? Well, I would say that it varies with every person. Some might have the opportunities to do so, some might just have one, some didn't have the chance at all. Love like this, doesn't come calling at our doorsteps everday. So when we are presented with the chance like this, do yourself a favour and grab it. Embrace the opportunity given to us, not denying it.
One shouldn't stop him/herself from accepting love, and giving love, for this is a sin. Denying yourself one of the most beautiful thing in the world, if not the most beautiful will simply cause more suffering to yourself. Why do that? Why torture yourself? Are you afraid of the bad consequences that might arrive later? It doesn't really matter.
We, as a human, have three things that matters in our life. The past, the present and the future.
The past, is the events that has happened in our life, and nothing that we can do now can change any of it. We can only learn from the events that took place in our life, in order to become a better person. If we've failed in our love relationship, learn from it, so that we can love better in the future. By giving out love, then only we will receive.
The future, is something rather unpredictable in our life. You won't know what will happen in the next second of your life, so why bother about tomorrow? Anticipate every next moment with pure anxiety and joy, and stop worrying about it.
The only thing left, is the present. Now this, is what we can do something about. If you are given the chance to love, accept it. Make a difference in your life today, as you will never know what the outcomes are. It might be a blessing in disguise, it might not. Who knows, and who cares. What matters the most is the present. What matters the most is the feelings of love that we have for each other now.
Don't deny yourself of love, for you'll bring suffering to yourself. You might even regret it, for not taking the "road not taken". You might grunt at yourself, 10 years later, for not choosing the other option.
Learn to accept. Learn to love.
How often is it that in life, we come across this thing called love? How often isit that we are presented with the opportunity to love a soul whole heartledly, and to be loved equally in return? Well, I would say that it varies with every person. Some might have the opportunities to do so, some might just have one, some didn't have the chance at all. Love like this, doesn't come calling at our doorsteps everday. So when we are presented with the chance like this, do yourself a favour and grab it. Embrace the opportunity given to us, not denying it.
One shouldn't stop him/herself from accepting love, and giving love, for this is a sin. Denying yourself one of the most beautiful thing in the world, if not the most beautiful will simply cause more suffering to yourself. Why do that? Why torture yourself? Are you afraid of the bad consequences that might arrive later? It doesn't really matter.
We, as a human, have three things that matters in our life. The past, the present and the future.
The past, is the events that has happened in our life, and nothing that we can do now can change any of it. We can only learn from the events that took place in our life, in order to become a better person. If we've failed in our love relationship, learn from it, so that we can love better in the future. By giving out love, then only we will receive.
The future, is something rather unpredictable in our life. You won't know what will happen in the next second of your life, so why bother about tomorrow? Anticipate every next moment with pure anxiety and joy, and stop worrying about it.
The only thing left, is the present. Now this, is what we can do something about. If you are given the chance to love, accept it. Make a difference in your life today, as you will never know what the outcomes are. It might be a blessing in disguise, it might not. Who knows, and who cares. What matters the most is the present. What matters the most is the feelings of love that we have for each other now.
Don't deny yourself of love, for you'll bring suffering to yourself. You might even regret it, for not taking the "road not taken". You might grunt at yourself, 10 years later, for not choosing the other option.
Learn to accept. Learn to love.
Friday, April 11, 2008
Monday, April 7, 2008
Going to where she belongs
I want to go to the place where she is now.
I want to throw all the books which are beside me now, hop into my car, and just drive and drive to her, knock her door, and give her a suprise.
"baby can i hold you tonight"
The title of the song definitely suits me now.
Every cells, every tissues, every limbs, of mine are wanting it.
And the worse thing is, my subconsciouness isn't helping at all. She's practically everywhere in my life now.
I see her in the mirror where i shaved, i see her sitting in front of me at my dining table, i see her sitting right beside me in the passenger seat when i'm driving.
Sigh~
have to study. Control engineering is definitely killing me now.
Miss her so much.
I'm totalled.
ok. have to get back to my books.
I want to throw all the books which are beside me now, hop into my car, and just drive and drive to her, knock her door, and give her a suprise.
"baby can i hold you tonight"
The title of the song definitely suits me now.
Every cells, every tissues, every limbs, of mine are wanting it.
And the worse thing is, my subconsciouness isn't helping at all. She's practically everywhere in my life now.
I see her in the mirror where i shaved, i see her sitting in front of me at my dining table, i see her sitting right beside me in the passenger seat when i'm driving.
Sigh~
have to study. Control engineering is definitely killing me now.
Miss her so much.
I'm totalled.
ok. have to get back to my books.
Friday, April 4, 2008
Friday, March 28, 2008
sh4msul m4k c1b41
I seriously don't understand at all. How the hell these bugger, this low life useless that's not even worth a life organism even make it into un1v3rs1t1 putr4 m4l4ys14. You must be wondering who am i referring to. Here's our lead actor for tonight.
un1v3rs1t1 putr4 m4l4ys14 3ng1n33r1ng f4culty's d3puty d34n 0f d3v3l0pm3nt, sh4msul m4k c1b41
This fella over here, is one of the most hated figures in our faculty. In cantonese idiom, we can describe him as "tengok belakang dia pun sudah benci depan dia"
Of course, his front look is the worst. There's not way anyone can deny how fugly he looks, at least to me. Why do i hate him so much?
Simple. Coz this bugger over here, happens to think that he's the smartest person alive on earth. yea right. Kiss my ass la. If you're the smartest person on earth, i'll be the 1st to "play your shoe".
Forget how grumpy you were everything we approach you for any approvals. Forget how fucking smelly your breath is everytime we talked to you. Forget how you look like an ass everytime we laid our eyes on you. But yesterday was the threshold of everything. Come on la nia seng.
We've decided to put up with ur theaterics, and invited you to our dinner. Just give some stupid ucapan, and go eat ur kambing la for fuck sake. Whats the need to condemn us when everyone's in the good mood? Who the hell do you think you are? PM? If i ask you to play "who has the biggest brain now", i'm fucking sure your points wont exceed 1.2k cm2. Yes, u fucking ass.
Well, i can't blame him too much. He's just too folly to think that by making everyone hates him, he's superior. An ass will forever be an ass. No use trying to change a shit on him. He'll still be, sh4msul m4k c1b41.
un1v3rs1t1 putr4 m4l4ys14 3ng1n33r1ng f4culty's d3puty d34n 0f d3v3l0pm3nt, sh4msul m4k c1b41
This fella over here, is one of the most hated figures in our faculty. In cantonese idiom, we can describe him as "tengok belakang dia pun sudah benci depan dia"
Of course, his front look is the worst. There's not way anyone can deny how fugly he looks, at least to me. Why do i hate him so much?
Simple. Coz this bugger over here, happens to think that he's the smartest person alive on earth. yea right. Kiss my ass la. If you're the smartest person on earth, i'll be the 1st to "play your shoe".
Forget how grumpy you were everything we approach you for any approvals. Forget how fucking smelly your breath is everytime we talked to you. Forget how you look like an ass everytime we laid our eyes on you. But yesterday was the threshold of everything. Come on la nia seng.
We've decided to put up with ur theaterics, and invited you to our dinner. Just give some stupid ucapan, and go eat ur kambing la for fuck sake. Whats the need to condemn us when everyone's in the good mood? Who the hell do you think you are? PM? If i ask you to play "who has the biggest brain now", i'm fucking sure your points wont exceed 1.2k cm2. Yes, u fucking ass.
Well, i can't blame him too much. He's just too folly to think that by making everyone hates him, he's superior. An ass will forever be an ass. No use trying to change a shit on him. He'll still be, sh4msul m4k c1b41.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Saturday, March 22, 2008
It has been confirmed. My worst fear is here. I'm officially "poisoned" yet again.
Everytime i sign in my msn, i'll search for that stupid girl's name.
Everytime my phone rings, i hope it's the big ugly bird.
Everytime i received a message, i pray that it's from the small brain aves.
Everytime i passed her faculty, i'll look out for the stupid flying rock.
Her ulti is so ................................ "gay"
F**k.
Everytime i sign in my msn, i'll search for that stupid girl's name.
Everytime my phone rings, i hope it's the big ugly bird.
Everytime i received a message, i pray that it's from the small brain aves.
Everytime i passed her faculty, i'll look out for the stupid flying rock.
Her ulti is so ................................ "gay"
F**k.
Friday, March 21, 2008
Changes in life
Life, is a gift from god. It started off from the very moment we crawled out from our maternal mother's womb, till the day we breathe out our last breath, which is death. It can be represented as a sheet of blank white paper, and when an event takes place in our life, a colour is added on the paper. Never can it be removed from the white paper again. And as time goes by, with more and more events take place in our life, more colours are added on the paper. What do we have then? The answer, a sheet of paper full of colours. Life can be really colourful in someone's life, yet it can be really ugly in others'. The transition from a white sheet of paper into a colourful paper is what we called changes in life.
Everything in this world change. It never stop changing. Now you are you, but a second later you will not be the you a second ago, as the element of life has changed you. We changed, we absorb the outcomes of the events, we learned from it and we adapt to improve ourself in this competitive world. Experience makes us a better person, or vice versa.
Changes in life are indeed good, if it makes u a better person. If not, try taking some of your precious time, reflect on yourself back, think hard, what makes you the person you are today. Work from there, amend yourself, and
Viola!
There you go!
A better you in your own life!
P.S/ Kong if you are reading this, ALL YOUR PENANG SEATS ARE BELONGS TO DAP!
Everything in this world change. It never stop changing. Now you are you, but a second later you will not be the you a second ago, as the element of life has changed you. We changed, we absorb the outcomes of the events, we learned from it and we adapt to improve ourself in this competitive world. Experience makes us a better person, or vice versa.
Changes in life are indeed good, if it makes u a better person. If not, try taking some of your precious time, reflect on yourself back, think hard, what makes you the person you are today. Work from there, amend yourself, and
Viola!
There you go!
A better you in your own life!
P.S/ Kong if you are reading this, ALL YOUR PENANG SEATS ARE BELONGS TO DAP!
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
The 12th General Election
The Malaysia's 12th general election is finally over. Results? Disastrous for the current ruling party but a shockingly good news for the oppositions. All these while, the government has pissed us off so much that we have to use this election to show them that, the voices of the 'rakyat malaysia' is still very important. That we are one of the key elements that makes a country a country.
Chinese, Indians, and even Malays, for once, stood up together and voted for the opposition parties to an extent where Gerakan, MCA,MIC and even UMNO suffers such a big loss. Experts called it their biggest loss in history, candidates for the parliamentary and state seats called it political tsunami. I'd say it, its the voice of pissed Malaysians.
Okay, Election is over. And now, doubts are beginning to be casted upon the citizens of Malaysia. What implications will it bring? The fact that BN losses its 2/3rd majority in parliament and to top that, losing 5 states in the latest election, has caused the stock market to plunged down so much that it has to stop its trade on monday noon.
There are also doubts whether the new state government, formed by the alliance party, PKR-DAP-PAS, will serve the citizens better or worse.
Only time will tell.
I sure hope they will perform better than the previouse state government.
And i'm sure they'll want to do better. 5 years are enough for them to show us what they are capable of, so that they can garner more votes in the future elections.
For now, i'm with all hope and expectations that Penang will prosper in the next 5 years.
Hope for a better future, where poverty and suffering are less, and opportunities are everywhere.
HIDUP DAP!!!
P/S: kong if you are reading this- ALL YOUR PENANG SEATS ARE BELONGS TO DAP!!!
haha.
Chinese, Indians, and even Malays, for once, stood up together and voted for the opposition parties to an extent where Gerakan, MCA,MIC and even UMNO suffers such a big loss. Experts called it their biggest loss in history, candidates for the parliamentary and state seats called it political tsunami. I'd say it, its the voice of pissed Malaysians.
Okay, Election is over. And now, doubts are beginning to be casted upon the citizens of Malaysia. What implications will it bring? The fact that BN losses its 2/3rd majority in parliament and to top that, losing 5 states in the latest election, has caused the stock market to plunged down so much that it has to stop its trade on monday noon.
There are also doubts whether the new state government, formed by the alliance party, PKR-DAP-PAS, will serve the citizens better or worse.
Only time will tell.
I sure hope they will perform better than the previouse state government.
And i'm sure they'll want to do better. 5 years are enough for them to show us what they are capable of, so that they can garner more votes in the future elections.
For now, i'm with all hope and expectations that Penang will prosper in the next 5 years.
Hope for a better future, where poverty and suffering are less, and opportunities are everywhere.
HIDUP DAP!!!
P/S: kong if you are reading this- ALL YOUR PENANG SEATS ARE BELONGS TO DAP!!!
haha.
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Monday, March 3, 2008
Just another empty post
Placed under the fan.
Sitting on the parquet floor.
Hands are on the keyboard.
Legs folded.
Messed hair.
Tired mind.
Body's feeling sick.
Losing concentration.
Heart, is feeling warm.
P.S/ Thanks, to all the Career and Self Development EXpo 2008 organizing committees who helped out with publicities. Thanks, to all my members. Thanks, to all that didn't blame me, and yet tried your best to help me. Thanks....
Sitting on the parquet floor.
Hands are on the keyboard.
Legs folded.
Messed hair.
Tired mind.
Body's feeling sick.
Losing concentration.
Heart, is feeling warm.
P.S/ Thanks, to all the Career and Self Development EXpo 2008 organizing committees who helped out with publicities. Thanks, to all my members. Thanks, to all that didn't blame me, and yet tried your best to help me. Thanks....
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Tidak Burgermbira lagi
The night feels empty without your presence.
The day seems longer without your presence.
Life is dull, without you.
The day seems longer without your presence.
Life is dull, without you.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Is....
Is at the threshold of his body and mind's capability.
Is goin to malfunction due to wear and fatigue.
Is confused.
Is crazy about the cosmic rock.
Is going to decapitate his head.
Is going to a place he belongs.
Is goin to malfunction due to wear and fatigue.
Is confused.
Is crazy about the cosmic rock.
Is going to decapitate his head.
Is going to a place he belongs.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Burgembira!
I am not supposed to feel this way right now!
WAKE UP!
SLAP* SLAP*
Damn.
She pawned me again.
bencinya!
:) --------------> :( --------------> :)
WAKE UP!
SLAP* SLAP*
Damn.
She pawned me again.
bencinya!
:) --------------> :( --------------> :)
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Over the moon
The last few days were simply too good for me. She crossed my path again, and like last time, i was all over the moon for that period. Everything was just like last time. My smile was so broad till even my face can't contain it. I don't want to land on earth again. Earth sucks. Moon's definitely better.
But i know, this is just a matter of time. Soon, it will all revert back to normal, I'll go back to my dull life, the spaceshuttle will land back on earth, the shooting star will travel pass me. I seriously don't want to hit the reset button.
I know it's coming. I know i shouldn't hope for anything. I know, it will only lead to disappoinment in the end. Yet, i'm hoping. Yet, i'm being so optimistic, when i know i shouldnt.
Men are born this way.
Men are weak.
Men are greedy.
Men are losers when it comes to this.
As long as there's tiny little hope, men will cling to it.
Pathetic, but it's the truth.
Men, are kiasu species.
Men, are human afterall.
But i know, this is just a matter of time. Soon, it will all revert back to normal, I'll go back to my dull life, the spaceshuttle will land back on earth, the shooting star will travel pass me. I seriously don't want to hit the reset button.
I know it's coming. I know i shouldn't hope for anything. I know, it will only lead to disappoinment in the end. Yet, i'm hoping. Yet, i'm being so optimistic, when i know i shouldnt.
Men are born this way.
Men are weak.
Men are greedy.
Men are losers when it comes to this.
As long as there's tiny little hope, men will cling to it.
Pathetic, but it's the truth.
Men, are kiasu species.
Men, are human afterall.
Friday, February 15, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Level 1 mage/priest
I need more sleep. I need more time.
Tried to memorise time stop. Partially succesful.
Teoh casted level 9 mage spell "time stop"*
spell casting failed due to lack of intelligence.
shit.
Ok then. I need to work faster.
Cast level 3 mage spell "haste"*
Forget how to cast.
Crap.
Fine.
I need a place to rest my tired mind and body, without any disturbance.
cast level 1 priest spell "sanctuary"*
Failed due to lack of wisdom.
Verdict*
I make a bad priest/mage.
Tried to memorise time stop. Partially succesful.
Teoh casted level 9 mage spell "time stop"*
spell casting failed due to lack of intelligence.
shit.
Ok then. I need to work faster.
Cast level 3 mage spell "haste"*
Forget how to cast.
Crap.
Fine.
I need a place to rest my tired mind and body, without any disturbance.
cast level 1 priest spell "sanctuary"*
Failed due to lack of wisdom.
Verdict*
I make a bad priest/mage.
On the gate
Is it so hard to love? Is it so hard to love your close ones impartially? I think it is. Not impossible, but very, very, very hard. No matter how impartial you try to be, in the end, it all comes down on how the others judge you. How the others look at your action.
I've tried my best, I tried to love you both all i can, i placed you both on equal status in my heart. Can't you see it? Don't listen to others. Please. These people are fuckers. They don't understand anything at all, and yet they are pretending they do. THIS kind of people, should mind their own business, instead of ours.
Don't judge me by my actions, but instead judge me by my heart for you. Actions sometimes doesn't represent one's love for others. I'm atas pagar la.
P.S/ I'm sorry for what i did today.
I've tried my best, I tried to love you both all i can, i placed you both on equal status in my heart. Can't you see it? Don't listen to others. Please. These people are fuckers. They don't understand anything at all, and yet they are pretending they do. THIS kind of people, should mind their own business, instead of ours.
Don't judge me by my actions, but instead judge me by my heart for you. Actions sometimes doesn't represent one's love for others. I'm atas pagar la.
P.S/ I'm sorry for what i did today.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Happy Chinese New Year!!
Happy Chinese New Year.
May the year of the Rat brings luck and joy to you guys.
Pergi la tahun BABI! Pergi la. Marilah Tahun Tikus. Marilah.
Pergilah bala-bala sekalian. Marilah tuah-tuah sekalian.
Aku mau menang duit banyak ni.
Aku nak pawn hangpa dalam Texas hold'em poker, black jack, ngau dan lain lain lagi.
haha.
May the year of the Rat brings luck and joy to you guys.
Pergi la tahun BABI! Pergi la. Marilah Tahun Tikus. Marilah.
Pergilah bala-bala sekalian. Marilah tuah-tuah sekalian.
Aku mau menang duit banyak ni.
Aku nak pawn hangpa dalam Texas hold'em poker, black jack, ngau dan lain lain lagi.
haha.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
I am Teoh Hock Lye
It feels so lonely now. I'm in my living room now. Blasting the atmosphere, vibrating millions of air molecules around me, using my toshiba lap top's speaker, to generate noise, which orientated nicely to form a nice tune. Songs. I'm listening to songs now. Daughtry. Its useless anyway. The noisy atmosphere i generated is no match for what i'm feeling for the past few weeks.
Ahhh~
I feel like calling her today. Feels like talking to her, seeing her, enjoying the atmosphere when she's around, before i go back to my hometown.
Hey, better not! I'll only miss her more if i did that. Fuh~
The moonlight that shined my face yesterday at the futsal court, reminds me of the emptiness i feel without her. Her laughter, her "cocks", her smile.
Allow me to pick a phrase from the movie i really enjoy, City Of Angels.
"I would have a touch of her, a sight of her, rather than an eternity without it"-Seth.
Although it may seem like i'm exaggerating now, but this is what's in me now. This is how i feel now.
An empty shell without love, which in the end being filled with tensions and pressure from schoolworks and activities.
A shallow guy, Teoh Hock Lye.
Ahhh~
I feel like calling her today. Feels like talking to her, seeing her, enjoying the atmosphere when she's around, before i go back to my hometown.
Hey, better not! I'll only miss her more if i did that. Fuh~
The moonlight that shined my face yesterday at the futsal court, reminds me of the emptiness i feel without her. Her laughter, her "cocks", her smile.
Allow me to pick a phrase from the movie i really enjoy, City Of Angels.
"I would have a touch of her, a sight of her, rather than an eternity without it"-Seth.
Although it may seem like i'm exaggerating now, but this is what's in me now. This is how i feel now.
An empty shell without love, which in the end being filled with tensions and pressure from schoolworks and activities.
A shallow guy, Teoh Hock Lye.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
The purpose of life
I had this conversation with a friend which took place a few weeks ago. In the conversation, the issue about how many relationships i've had, and the number she's had arised. Well, this leads to a point she brought up, which i kinda disagreed with it. Apparently, she has only been involved in 2 relationships, simply because she does not wish to carry the "playgirl" tag around her neck.
This is what i don't understand. I mean, what is our purpose here? Physicists said our purpose is to find the beginning of everything, which is why they came up with " the big bang" theory. Christianity said we are here to serve god, and so do the Muslims, Buddhists said we are here to experience the suffering and joy in this wretched world, which resulted in my friend saying that Buddha is a pessimists. haha. As for me, i'll have to say that my purpose here, is to search for our soulmate. Our other half. Our mr. Right/mrs. Right.
And of course, in our dire search for our other half, which is so hard to be found is this gargantuanly big cruel world called Earth, we are bound to stumble upon our non-soulmates, which in the end resulted in failed relationships. These are all a part of our life's learning curve. This is what we are supposed to be prepared to embrace. Learn from mistakes or failed relationship, improve ourself and become a better person in the future. Learn to love better, learn to care better, learn to give unconditional love, and last but not the least, learn to forgive.
I've had one failed relationship, and it took me 2 years to realise she's not my mrs right. I've no regrets whatsoever during my 2 years "internship" with her. In fact, i wanted to thank her, for making me a better person. The same goes to shooting star as well. The fact that she turned me down, has make me a better person too. I'm glad that god gave me the opportunity to meet them.
This is what i don't understand. I mean, what is our purpose here? Physicists said our purpose is to find the beginning of everything, which is why they came up with " the big bang" theory. Christianity said we are here to serve god, and so do the Muslims, Buddhists said we are here to experience the suffering and joy in this wretched world, which resulted in my friend saying that Buddha is a pessimists. haha. As for me, i'll have to say that my purpose here, is to search for our soulmate. Our other half. Our mr. Right/mrs. Right.
And of course, in our dire search for our other half, which is so hard to be found is this gargantuanly big cruel world called Earth, we are bound to stumble upon our non-soulmates, which in the end resulted in failed relationships. These are all a part of our life's learning curve. This is what we are supposed to be prepared to embrace. Learn from mistakes or failed relationship, improve ourself and become a better person in the future. Learn to love better, learn to care better, learn to give unconditional love, and last but not the least, learn to forgive.
I've had one failed relationship, and it took me 2 years to realise she's not my mrs right. I've no regrets whatsoever during my 2 years "internship" with her. In fact, i wanted to thank her, for making me a better person. The same goes to shooting star as well. The fact that she turned me down, has make me a better person too. I'm glad that god gave me the opportunity to meet them.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Easier said than done
It takes a few calories, couple of tweaks from your jaw muscles, brainless mind, to utter a few words out, but it takes ample time, top notch determination and brute strength to perform certain things we said out.
Fuck me. Fuck you. Fuck everyone. Fuck the world. Fuck me again. A very fucking thanks to everyone who fucking viewed this fucked up post in this fuckingly lame blog. Big fucking thanks.
Got to fucking sign out now. Fuck bye.
Fuck me. Fuck you. Fuck everyone. Fuck the world. Fuck me again. A very fucking thanks to everyone who fucking viewed this fucked up post in this fuckingly lame blog. Big fucking thanks.
Got to fucking sign out now. Fuck bye.
S.O.S
It feels so painful now.
Like a sword piercing through my fragile, weak heart.
I thought the cut is healing, but the old wound just wouldn't stop bleeding.
It'll just continue to bleed, until every litre of blood in my body dried up.
I hate this feeling.
Why can't this thought and feelings for her stop?
Help me. Please kill me. Please take my mind away and make me a living zombie.
I don't care.
S.O.S
Like a sword piercing through my fragile, weak heart.
I thought the cut is healing, but the old wound just wouldn't stop bleeding.
It'll just continue to bleed, until every litre of blood in my body dried up.
I hate this feeling.
Why can't this thought and feelings for her stop?
Help me. Please kill me. Please take my mind away and make me a living zombie.
I don't care.
S.O.S
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Shocking yet thrilling news
I'm absolutely thrilled right now. My friend is getting engaged in February. A girl. The small puny little girl who sat behind me in f2 class back in SMK Dato' Onn Butterworth. Walaueh! I just can't imagine it. Everything just happened too fast. Yesterday she was still sitting behind me in class, joking around with me and the rest, bidding me farewell after class. We were so young at that time. Now, she's getting engaged. With my nemesis. The guy who took her from me.
Maleh! I was too late. Nevertheless, i wish her and my "nemesis" happy engagement. I'm happy that she has found her soulmate, her guardian angel, her other half in this big and complicated world.
Cepatlah beranak dan bagi saya tengok produk Hangpa berdua. haha!!
Maleh! I was too late. Nevertheless, i wish her and my "nemesis" happy engagement. I'm happy that she has found her soulmate, her guardian angel, her other half in this big and complicated world.
Cepatlah beranak dan bagi saya tengok produk Hangpa berdua. haha!!
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
* * * * *
Ohhh~,
what a vast sky,
looks so empty without you,
wondering,
where are you,
my shooting star,
searching hard but you seem invinsible,
will you cross my path again,
i ponder.
what a vast sky,
looks so empty without you,
wondering,
where are you,
my shooting star,
searching hard but you seem invinsible,
will you cross my path again,
i ponder.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Hectic life
I'm tired. I'm wear out. Its been a hectic 5 days for me. Marathon, C-DEX, Donkey and classes. This 4 things are the main ingredients for my busy schedule. The marathon i joined last sunday took its toll on me and i find it difficult to walk these few days as a result of overstressing my muscles during the run. I'm very tired now. I want to sleep. And yet i'm blogging. lol.
Timelines for my publicity group are approaching, and i'm still far from halfway on completing my tasks. I'm screwed, pressured, scared and fucked up. My friends kept saying i have done a good job, performing beyond their expectations, but deep in my heart, i know i can do better. I know they said that to motivate me, to ease some pressure off my shoulders, but with power, comes responsibility and responsibility exists together with pressure.
Responsiblility. The thing that i've been avoiding since i entered university. Suddenly new things keep appearing in my life. I'll just have to buckle up and make sure things go as planned in the meeting.
Strange though, although i've been very busy lately, i can still allocate some time to think of her.haha. I miss her. The shooting star. Passed her faculty just now, hoping that she and her friends will show up, hoping to glance at her, or perhaps offering her a ride back to her college, but life is not like what we expect. Checked my phone just now, hoping for her msgs or phone call. Nah, this is near impossible. I wonder how is she now.
Is she having fun now? That'll be good for her.
Is she seeing someone else now? That'll be good for her too, but not for me :(
How's her health? I sure hope she's healthy.
Is she thinking of me now? i wish for that, but i know the percentage is very small.
Alright, i better sign out now. Tonnes of works waiting to be completed.
Kira Yamato, Strikeor freedom, ikimasu!
Timelines for my publicity group are approaching, and i'm still far from halfway on completing my tasks. I'm screwed, pressured, scared and fucked up. My friends kept saying i have done a good job, performing beyond their expectations, but deep in my heart, i know i can do better. I know they said that to motivate me, to ease some pressure off my shoulders, but with power, comes responsibility and responsibility exists together with pressure.
Responsiblility. The thing that i've been avoiding since i entered university. Suddenly new things keep appearing in my life. I'll just have to buckle up and make sure things go as planned in the meeting.
Strange though, although i've been very busy lately, i can still allocate some time to think of her.haha. I miss her. The shooting star. Passed her faculty just now, hoping that she and her friends will show up, hoping to glance at her, or perhaps offering her a ride back to her college, but life is not like what we expect. Checked my phone just now, hoping for her msgs or phone call. Nah, this is near impossible. I wonder how is she now.
Is she having fun now? That'll be good for her.
Is she seeing someone else now? That'll be good for her too, but not for me :(
How's her health? I sure hope she's healthy.
Is she thinking of me now? i wish for that, but i know the percentage is very small.
Alright, i better sign out now. Tonnes of works waiting to be completed.
Kira Yamato, Strikeor freedom, ikimasu!
Friday, January 11, 2008
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Heavenly dream
Today's like heaven to me.
I'm sure i must be in a dream.
A dream that i don't feel like waking up from it.
Yeah. A good dream. It has been a while.
Please don't let the alarm clock screwed up my dream.
I'm sure i must be in a dream.
A dream that i don't feel like waking up from it.
Yeah. A good dream. It has been a while.
Please don't let the alarm clock screwed up my dream.
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Stupid me
Its just pure stupidity. The signs aren't there anymore. The answer's clear. But i still hope that things will be just like what i hope to.
I still cling on to ...... nothing. Perhaps this is what people described by, people do stupid things when it comes to love. People tend to be blinded by love.
Perhaps i'm one of them.
Perhaps i'm just too scared to let go.
Perhaps i'm just too persistent.
Perhaps i'm not.
I miss her now. But does she misses me? Am i the only one doing the "missing" now? I think the answer is yes. Is it still worth it not to let go? To keep pushing on for that little nothing?
I'd say yes.
But i've lost my courage. I've lost my "Mojo".
I still cling on to ...... nothing. Perhaps this is what people described by, people do stupid things when it comes to love. People tend to be blinded by love.
Perhaps i'm one of them.
Perhaps i'm just too scared to let go.
Perhaps i'm just too persistent.
Perhaps i'm not.
I miss her now. But does she misses me? Am i the only one doing the "missing" now? I think the answer is yes. Is it still worth it not to let go? To keep pushing on for that little nothing?
I'd say yes.
But i've lost my courage. I've lost my "Mojo".
Monday, January 7, 2008
The upcoming big crisis
Brace yourself.
It's coming.
Yes.
The petrol hike.
I hate it. You hate it too. But our government is going to enforce it as the current price for a barrel of crude oil is about whopping 99 USD. And its implications even though before its enforcement? One thing that i'm sure is that things are more expensive nowadays! Roti diana that used to cost me RM3.50, now are selling at the price of RM4.00. CRAP. Hup Seng cream crackers are selling at nearly RM3.50, an increase of nearly RM0.50-0.70 compared to a year ago. No more Hup Seng for supper. Even Roti Gardenia's price is 20 cents more expensive! Prices went up like nobody's business!
But hey, whats the big deal right? I'll just have to study harder, get good grades and secure a job with nice pay, work harder to impress my boss and hope for salary increment at the end of the year, perhaps getting bonuses as well and all the problems above are "poof"! Wrong! You are not seeing the big picture here. Go get your specs before you continue reading.
I was just like you guys, until i stumbled upon one article that changes my mind, totally.
This is serious shit.
This isn't about us having to pay more money for our car's petrol.
This is about the crisis that we are going to face in the next few years time.
The one that's going to hit everyone in the world, in just a matter of time, if the solution to this shit is yet to be found.
Our world right now, is producing more oil everyday. Sooner or later, global oil production will reach a point called the "peak oil", where the rate of production will be maximum at that time. After that, comes the decline. This means, oil barrel production will decrease day by day, while the demand for oil will keep increasing, due to the worldwide industrial growth and increasing worldwide population. Experts already predicted that oil production will decrease by about 2% every year while the demand for crude oil will increase by 3% every year by then. Things are just going to be costlier, as almost everything in the world relies on oil. From electricity that are usually generated using oil and coals, automobiles that requires gas to move ( orewuwa nissan sunny!!), industries that requires crude oil for its productions, i.e Durex condom manufacturing, natural gases for producing fertilisers for farming purposes, to the very basic needs of cooking oil to cook my Roti Diana.
"So what? We still have alot of reserves. It's going to take like another 20 years for the reserves to fully depleted. Chill la. We've got time mah. If not, god will help us 1."
Noob. You just been first blooded.
How i wish that things are much simpler this way. But it ain't like that. A mere decrease of 5-10% of global oil production when the demand is high is enough to skyrocket the price of 1 barrel of crude oil and possibly starting a war, with the purpose of conquering other countries for their oil reserves or energy sources. Things are just going to turn bad and i just can't imagine how bad it will be. This shit, is really shitty. Shitter.
Alright, enough about global issues. What about our country?
According to experts, our country will import more petroleums than exporting it by 2011, because our reserves are draining up as i blog now. This means, things will be MORE expensive in the future again. PETRONAS won't be able to save our government's ass that much in the future. I can't eat Roti Diana anymore. Hup Seng will costs RM10. And our worst nightmare. Petrol's simply going to cost so much, middle class men like me will have rely on public transportation to reach my destination instead of driving my Nissan "Felali" Sunny. Guess i'll just have to park my car under the shade nia lor.lol.
It's coming.
Yes.
The petrol hike.
I hate it. You hate it too. But our government is going to enforce it as the current price for a barrel of crude oil is about whopping 99 USD. And its implications even though before its enforcement? One thing that i'm sure is that things are more expensive nowadays! Roti diana that used to cost me RM3.50, now are selling at the price of RM4.00. CRAP. Hup Seng cream crackers are selling at nearly RM3.50, an increase of nearly RM0.50-0.70 compared to a year ago. No more Hup Seng for supper. Even Roti Gardenia's price is 20 cents more expensive! Prices went up like nobody's business!
But hey, whats the big deal right? I'll just have to study harder, get good grades and secure a job with nice pay, work harder to impress my boss and hope for salary increment at the end of the year, perhaps getting bonuses as well and all the problems above are "poof"! Wrong! You are not seeing the big picture here. Go get your specs before you continue reading.
I was just like you guys, until i stumbled upon one article that changes my mind, totally.
This is serious shit.
This isn't about us having to pay more money for our car's petrol.
This is about the crisis that we are going to face in the next few years time.
The one that's going to hit everyone in the world, in just a matter of time, if the solution to this shit is yet to be found.
Our world right now, is producing more oil everyday. Sooner or later, global oil production will reach a point called the "peak oil", where the rate of production will be maximum at that time. After that, comes the decline. This means, oil barrel production will decrease day by day, while the demand for oil will keep increasing, due to the worldwide industrial growth and increasing worldwide population. Experts already predicted that oil production will decrease by about 2% every year while the demand for crude oil will increase by 3% every year by then. Things are just going to be costlier, as almost everything in the world relies on oil. From electricity that are usually generated using oil and coals, automobiles that requires gas to move ( orewuwa nissan sunny!!), industries that requires crude oil for its productions, i.e Durex condom manufacturing, natural gases for producing fertilisers for farming purposes, to the very basic needs of cooking oil to cook my Roti Diana.
"So what? We still have alot of reserves. It's going to take like another 20 years for the reserves to fully depleted. Chill la. We've got time mah. If not, god will help us 1."
Noob. You just been first blooded.
How i wish that things are much simpler this way. But it ain't like that. A mere decrease of 5-10% of global oil production when the demand is high is enough to skyrocket the price of 1 barrel of crude oil and possibly starting a war, with the purpose of conquering other countries for their oil reserves or energy sources. Things are just going to turn bad and i just can't imagine how bad it will be. This shit, is really shitty. Shitter.
Alright, enough about global issues. What about our country?
According to experts, our country will import more petroleums than exporting it by 2011, because our reserves are draining up as i blog now. This means, things will be MORE expensive in the future again. PETRONAS won't be able to save our government's ass that much in the future. I can't eat Roti Diana anymore. Hup Seng will costs RM10. And our worst nightmare. Petrol's simply going to cost so much, middle class men like me will have rely on public transportation to reach my destination instead of driving my Nissan "Felali" Sunny. Guess i'll just have to park my car under the shade nia lor.lol.
Aphrodisiac meal
Aiseh.
Thought wanna show you guys how McD prosperity burger looks like, but my mouth has the capability to chomp 5 times in 1 second. Alot faster than my hand holding the camera.
Sorry guys. haha.
Yosh! I'm recharged for tonight!
Friday, January 4, 2008
Concept of Merit
Merit. Although my knowledge in buddhism is not that profound, due to the fact that i'm not a staunch buddhist, and that i'm just too lazy to read or too sleepy during most of the dhamma talks that i attended, i'm pretty sure that this concept is one of the most well spread. If you have never heard of merit, allow me to take the role of a dhamma speaker and teach u buggers the concept of merits, although i suck at it.lol.
Do good deeds, having good thoughts, righteous acts generates merits. Merits are your pasport to enlightenment or should i say, the place without suffering and pain. Looks simple? Yeah it does. (Actually that's all that i know from the merit talk, because i was fishing during the talk) But i'm positive that not many can actually do that. Not even me. When it comes to doing good deeds, people tend to think twice before doing it. Thoughts like will this good deeds shit going to do me any good. Sad, but it's the truth. Most Malaysians are brought up in this kind of environment.
Merits can be transferred too. How? I'm not too sure about it, but i think its quite simple. You just need to chant some puja and the merits you generated will be transferred to others. And just in case u guys were wondering why should we give away the merits we generated so "hard" to others, the concept here is that, you let them enjoy the benefits of the merits u generated. You see, this is a win-win situation. You generate more merits by transfering merits (doing good deeds), and they get to enjoy ur merits. Normally, we transfer merits to the departed ones to ease their sufferings and to help them reincarnate in case their merits are not enough.
Now, you guys must be wondering why suddenly i'm not that shallow right? This is because in the last INCOVAR camp, i was kind of interested to learn more about transference of merits. Hence, i turned to Kong Chung Hwa, the smarter jack ass. Why? Because i feel that my friends, relatives, accquintances need it. Recently i was bombarded with the news that my friends who one by one, lost their beloved ones. I'm trully sorry about their loss and if u guys don't mind, the next part of this post will be dedicated to them.
Friend A who lost his/her father a few months back
Friend B who lost his/her grandmother a few days back
Friend C who lost his/her grandmother less than a month ago
Friend D who lost his/her grandfather a few months back
Friend E who lost his/her grandfather a few months back
Friend F who lost his/her grandmother nearly 2 years ago
Auntie and cousins who lost uncle nearly 2 years ago
and a few more.
Be strong. Though this loss is like a deep cut in your heart, let time heal your wound. Though one day the memories of your love one will fade away, rest assured that they will always be in your heart. They will always be there, watching over you, as your guardian angel, protecting you. Though this experience isn't a pleasant one, it will make you a better person in the future. Let us look forward to the future, and live life to the fullest, as i'm 100% sure, this is what they want you to do as well. Sometimes, its better to let go than to cling to it. And if this still doesn't work, you can give me a call for my service. I'm a part time entertainer, and i don't come cheap ok. haha.
P.S I'll dedicate my merits to your deceased love ones if i have a chance, and provided that i still remember. hah!
Do good deeds, having good thoughts, righteous acts generates merits. Merits are your pasport to enlightenment or should i say, the place without suffering and pain. Looks simple? Yeah it does. (Actually that's all that i know from the merit talk, because i was fishing during the talk) But i'm positive that not many can actually do that. Not even me. When it comes to doing good deeds, people tend to think twice before doing it. Thoughts like will this good deeds shit going to do me any good. Sad, but it's the truth. Most Malaysians are brought up in this kind of environment.
Merits can be transferred too. How? I'm not too sure about it, but i think its quite simple. You just need to chant some puja and the merits you generated will be transferred to others. And just in case u guys were wondering why should we give away the merits we generated so "hard" to others, the concept here is that, you let them enjoy the benefits of the merits u generated. You see, this is a win-win situation. You generate more merits by transfering merits (doing good deeds), and they get to enjoy ur merits. Normally, we transfer merits to the departed ones to ease their sufferings and to help them reincarnate in case their merits are not enough.
Now, you guys must be wondering why suddenly i'm not that shallow right? This is because in the last INCOVAR camp, i was kind of interested to learn more about transference of merits. Hence, i turned to Kong Chung Hwa, the smarter jack ass. Why? Because i feel that my friends, relatives, accquintances need it. Recently i was bombarded with the news that my friends who one by one, lost their beloved ones. I'm trully sorry about their loss and if u guys don't mind, the next part of this post will be dedicated to them.
Friend A who lost his/her father a few months back
Friend B who lost his/her grandmother a few days back
Friend C who lost his/her grandmother less than a month ago
Friend D who lost his/her grandfather a few months back
Friend E who lost his/her grandfather a few months back
Friend F who lost his/her grandmother nearly 2 years ago
Auntie and cousins who lost uncle nearly 2 years ago
and a few more.
Be strong. Though this loss is like a deep cut in your heart, let time heal your wound. Though one day the memories of your love one will fade away, rest assured that they will always be in your heart. They will always be there, watching over you, as your guardian angel, protecting you. Though this experience isn't a pleasant one, it will make you a better person in the future. Let us look forward to the future, and live life to the fullest, as i'm 100% sure, this is what they want you to do as well. Sometimes, its better to let go than to cling to it. And if this still doesn't work, you can give me a call for my service. I'm a part time entertainer, and i don't come cheap ok. haha.
P.S I'll dedicate my merits to your deceased love ones if i have a chance, and provided that i still remember. hah!
C-DEX
Career and Self Development
Expo 2008
(C-DEX 2008)
Theme:
Empower, Endeavour, Excel
Date:
24th February 2008 (C-DEX RUN)
1st March 2008 – 3th March 2008 (Career Fair and Workshop)
Venue: Faculty of Engineering, Universiti Putra Malaysia
The first ever career and self development expo 2008 (C-DEX 2008) with the theme Endeavour, Empower, Excel, is the biggest engineering student activity in Universiti Putra Malaysia (UPM) organized by the Engineering Students’ Society (PEMAJU).
This expo is divided into 2 parts:
a) Career expo
b) Career Workshop
This expo is organized by PEMAJU to provide UPM students with proper future career exposure to various companies and corporations. This will thus enhance their chances of obtaining a career or internship of their choice without having to go far, and also realizing the potential of our students to prospective employers. Engineering students will be our priority but students from other courses and universities would also be invited to the expo.
The workshop would be targeted mainly for engineering students to have themselves equipped with a lot of vital knowledge for their future undertakings. It will focus on the soft skills of undergraduates before and after they obtain a job.
To promote this event, we will be organizing a run entitled C-DEX Run which will be held earlier before C-DEX, and we will be targeting students from UPM and other also other universities for this event.
Our Objectives:
1. To enhance co-operation, networking and good relationship between the industry, academic and governmental organization in developing world class graduates.
2. To draw interest and concern of the undergraduates over the importance of engineers as potential driving force to the country’s development.
3. To create a platform for young people to practice leadership, improve soft skills, and to develop their network.
Our Programme:
C-DEX 2008 includes a Run for publicity purposes and Career Fair which will run in parallel with a Self- Development Workshop.
i. C-DEX Run (24TH February 2008)
The focus of this run will be to promote C-DEX, by exposing runners to the objective of the Expo and the benefits they would acquire now and also in the future. Therefore we will be inviting students from UPM and also other universities to participate in this event. We are targeting 300 male and 300 female runners to participate in the run. Each of these runners will be entitled to a goodie bag and t-shirt, and will be entertained by a small carnival held during that day too, which will include lucky draws and performances. We will of course set a C-DEX booth up too during that day for publicity purposes.
ii. C-DEX Career Fair (1st March 2008 – 3th March 2008)
We are inviting multinational corporations such as Shell, Motorola, Bayer, YTL and many more to provide interview sessions for graduates and also interns. Companies could also offer applications for scholarships or funds for deserving students, if applicable. Apart from that we will also invite them to promote their companies to students and will give participating engineering students an insight on the working culture of each respective participating company.
iii. C-DEX Self Development Workshop (1st March 2008)
The workshop will focus on effective self development of a student or graduate, and will chance to improve student’s perception towards the job sector. The objective of this workshop is to help improve overall marketability of students, by recommending things they are supposed to experience while still in university and also when applying for a job. We would also be stressing on important issues upon entering the working world, and how to face them effectively. There will be various talks and a forum involved for the purposes mentioned above.
Official Website
to be confirmed
E-mail address
cdex08@gmail.com
Mailing Address
Persatuan Mahasiswa-mahasiswi Kejuruteraan
Fakulti Kejuruteraan
Universiti Putra Malaysia
43400, Serdang
Selangor Darul Ehsan
Inquiries
Director of C-DEX 08
Tan Yong Woi
017-320 1990
Career Department of C-DEX 08
Ooi Tze Howe
012-559 5993
Workshop Department of C-DEX 08
Chuah Pui Xi
012-324 5128
Expo 2008
(C-DEX 2008)
Theme:
Empower, Endeavour, Excel
Date:
24th February 2008 (C-DEX RUN)
1st March 2008 – 3th March 2008 (Career Fair and Workshop)
Venue: Faculty of Engineering, Universiti Putra Malaysia
The first ever career and self development expo 2008 (C-DEX 2008) with the theme Endeavour, Empower, Excel, is the biggest engineering student activity in Universiti Putra Malaysia (UPM) organized by the Engineering Students’ Society (PEMAJU).
This expo is divided into 2 parts:
a) Career expo
b) Career Workshop
This expo is organized by PEMAJU to provide UPM students with proper future career exposure to various companies and corporations. This will thus enhance their chances of obtaining a career or internship of their choice without having to go far, and also realizing the potential of our students to prospective employers. Engineering students will be our priority but students from other courses and universities would also be invited to the expo.
The workshop would be targeted mainly for engineering students to have themselves equipped with a lot of vital knowledge for their future undertakings. It will focus on the soft skills of undergraduates before and after they obtain a job.
To promote this event, we will be organizing a run entitled C-DEX Run which will be held earlier before C-DEX, and we will be targeting students from UPM and other also other universities for this event.
Our Objectives:
1. To enhance co-operation, networking and good relationship between the industry, academic and governmental organization in developing world class graduates.
2. To draw interest and concern of the undergraduates over the importance of engineers as potential driving force to the country’s development.
3. To create a platform for young people to practice leadership, improve soft skills, and to develop their network.
Our Programme:
C-DEX 2008 includes a Run for publicity purposes and Career Fair which will run in parallel with a Self- Development Workshop.
i. C-DEX Run (24TH February 2008)
The focus of this run will be to promote C-DEX, by exposing runners to the objective of the Expo and the benefits they would acquire now and also in the future. Therefore we will be inviting students from UPM and also other universities to participate in this event. We are targeting 300 male and 300 female runners to participate in the run. Each of these runners will be entitled to a goodie bag and t-shirt, and will be entertained by a small carnival held during that day too, which will include lucky draws and performances. We will of course set a C-DEX booth up too during that day for publicity purposes.
ii. C-DEX Career Fair (1st March 2008 – 3th March 2008)
We are inviting multinational corporations such as Shell, Motorola, Bayer, YTL and many more to provide interview sessions for graduates and also interns. Companies could also offer applications for scholarships or funds for deserving students, if applicable. Apart from that we will also invite them to promote their companies to students and will give participating engineering students an insight on the working culture of each respective participating company.
iii. C-DEX Self Development Workshop (1st March 2008)
The workshop will focus on effective self development of a student or graduate, and will chance to improve student’s perception towards the job sector. The objective of this workshop is to help improve overall marketability of students, by recommending things they are supposed to experience while still in university and also when applying for a job. We would also be stressing on important issues upon entering the working world, and how to face them effectively. There will be various talks and a forum involved for the purposes mentioned above.
Official Website
to be confirmed
E-mail address
cdex08@gmail.com
Mailing Address
Persatuan Mahasiswa-mahasiswi Kejuruteraan
Fakulti Kejuruteraan
Universiti Putra Malaysia
43400, Serdang
Selangor Darul Ehsan
Inquiries
Director of C-DEX 08
Tan Yong Woi
017-320 1990
Career Department of C-DEX 08
Ooi Tze Howe
012-559 5993
Workshop Department of C-DEX 08
Chuah Pui Xi
012-324 5128
Thursday, January 3, 2008
The shooting star *
In the darkest night it came,
Illuminates the path while moving,
The shooting star.
So bright and so perfect,
Hardly any flaws.
Voyaging so high but seems so low,
So near yet so far~
Came and go so swiftly,
Like lightning,
That strikes deep into my heart.
Illuminates the path while moving,
The shooting star.
So bright and so perfect,
Hardly any flaws.
Voyaging so high but seems so low,
So near yet so far~
Came and go so swiftly,
Like lightning,
That strikes deep into my heart.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Flashes of memories
What happens if someday the ones u love so much passed away suddenly? What if you didn't even have the chance to say goodbye to them? To say how much u love them? To say ur final words to them before they depart on their new journey of afterlife?
I urge you to seriously give it a thought. Because things like this do happen in our life. I used to think that this issue will never appear in my life. But i was so wrong. I lost my good uncle in law. My auntie lost her beloved husband. My cousins lost their caring father. And we didn't even have the chance to say goodbye to him. He was murdered. His death was horrifying. He suffered so much before he breathed in his last air.
I still remember the day i received the news.
It took place in the morning. I was in genting at that time.I was in the buffet hall, figuring what to put on my plate for my second serving when suddenly my phone rang. Mom told me the news. I said "what?", not sure of what i've just heard. I was stunned. Yeah, stunned just like when sand king impaled ur ass from the ground and your hero will lost all abilities and even movements for 2.75 seconds. It took me a 2.75 seconds to compose myself before asking her what really happened. She didnt said much. Correction. She just simply can't find the strength to tell me what really happened. I hung up. Without any delay, i dialed my dad's number, hoping he can tell me what the fuck happened. Guess what. He didnt want to elaborate. I told him i'm coming back asap but he told me to stay for another night in genting, and i obeyed.
Till today i simply don't understand why i followed my father's "command". Till today i regretted that i didn't come back the moment i found out about his death. And the worst thing was, initially i thought he was murdered by "tai yee long" because he owe ppl money, or got beaten to death because he offended someone. That's how shallow my thinking was. Man, i deserve to be shot by of chinese soldiers with the bullets i bought for myself.
Nevertheless i was informed bout the truth, although it came abit later. I cried when my sis told me what happened. I cried during his funeral. I cried during the IXP sharing (Fuck you kong for laughing at me on that day). I never thought i'll cry. Sometimes, i hope he's still here. So that we can continue our conversation about the "包青天" drama aired in astro tvb Xing He, my education, my future, my love life and few things more.
Rest in peace. I promise, i will try my best to take good care of auntie and cousins, and perhaps burn more hell money for you, so that u can afford mercedes, ipod, bungalow down there ok! But in order for that to happened, i have to stop procrastinate. Damn! Uncle, if you are reading this, please send me something to cure this freaking illness.
P.S: To the one who murdered him, screw you. Even you're still free out there, thanks to the incapabilities of our royal police, one day, your god will lay the smackdown on your ass. And i will personally be the 1st to give u a 3:16 stone cold stunner.
I urge you to seriously give it a thought. Because things like this do happen in our life. I used to think that this issue will never appear in my life. But i was so wrong. I lost my good uncle in law. My auntie lost her beloved husband. My cousins lost their caring father. And we didn't even have the chance to say goodbye to him. He was murdered. His death was horrifying. He suffered so much before he breathed in his last air.
I still remember the day i received the news.
It took place in the morning. I was in genting at that time.I was in the buffet hall, figuring what to put on my plate for my second serving when suddenly my phone rang. Mom told me the news. I said "what?", not sure of what i've just heard. I was stunned. Yeah, stunned just like when sand king impaled ur ass from the ground and your hero will lost all abilities and even movements for 2.75 seconds. It took me a 2.75 seconds to compose myself before asking her what really happened. She didnt said much. Correction. She just simply can't find the strength to tell me what really happened. I hung up. Without any delay, i dialed my dad's number, hoping he can tell me what the fuck happened. Guess what. He didnt want to elaborate. I told him i'm coming back asap but he told me to stay for another night in genting, and i obeyed.
Till today i simply don't understand why i followed my father's "command". Till today i regretted that i didn't come back the moment i found out about his death. And the worst thing was, initially i thought he was murdered by "tai yee long" because he owe ppl money, or got beaten to death because he offended someone. That's how shallow my thinking was. Man, i deserve to be shot by of chinese soldiers with the bullets i bought for myself.
Nevertheless i was informed bout the truth, although it came abit later. I cried when my sis told me what happened. I cried during his funeral. I cried during the IXP sharing (Fuck you kong for laughing at me on that day). I never thought i'll cry. Sometimes, i hope he's still here. So that we can continue our conversation about the "包青天" drama aired in astro tvb Xing He, my education, my future, my love life and few things more.
Rest in peace. I promise, i will try my best to take good care of auntie and cousins, and perhaps burn more hell money for you, so that u can afford mercedes, ipod, bungalow down there ok! But in order for that to happened, i have to stop procrastinate. Damn! Uncle, if you are reading this, please send me something to cure this freaking illness.
P.S: To the one who murdered him, screw you. Even you're still free out there, thanks to the incapabilities of our royal police, one day, your god will lay the smackdown on your ass. And i will personally be the 1st to give u a 3:16 stone cold stunner.
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It takes time to fall for someone, but it takes longer time to forget someone.
It pains to love sometimes, but it pains even more to stop loving.
It hurts when i think of her, but it hurts the most to stop thinking of her.
It pains to love sometimes, but it pains even more to stop loving.
It hurts when i think of her, but it hurts the most to stop thinking of her.
Life
"How I wish I am little again, when things were less complicated" - Alvin Siao Ta Po (at least I gave you credit!) :AnGeLicLy^DeViLish
Bodo nak mampus "hang kucing." lol.
Bodo nak mampus "hang kucing." lol.
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