pasrah. sembilu

Don’t feel like waking up at all today. Don’t feel like talking to anyone today. Miss her so much. Want to see her, but afraid I’ll miss her even more after that. Want to call her, but afraid she won’t pick up. Even if she picks up, I’m afraid that I’ll once again hope and expect too much, which will in the end turned into a big pile of disappointment. Gone were the days where I can talk normally and happily with her. Gone were the days where she msn and sms me. Right now, it seems that there’s a barrier that exists between us. Words are picked correctly before uttered out, sentences are structured nicely before being said. Wished I never ask her the question. Perhaps we can still be good friends if the question never popped out. Now, I can only hope that she finds someone that she loves, that loves her, that can provide her the things she wants. Hope that time will heal my feelings soon enough, so that I can smile and laugh for real. The only thing that I can do best now is to sleep, hoping that my dreams will bring me some pleasant moments I crave right now. But damn, have to go to Julian’s house later. Going to pawn some AI in winning eleven. Goin to paksa him belanja me old town kopitiam breakfast tomorrow. Haha. Die Julian die. Die sux!

P.S: Kong, aku pasrah juga. Sembilu! Haha. But at least I shave!

Damn advertisement

I wan eat McD prosperity burger! Damn it! The ad is killing me! Must get my hands on one of it.

Happy new year everyone

2007. it’s just a matter of hours before the Gregorian calendar turns 2008. There goes another year of my university life. I still remember the 1st day when i was in UPM, where I’m so eager to start my university life, hoping to uncover and see new stuffs, do things that I can only imagine back at secondary school. But things turned out to be just the opposite of what I expect it to be. At that point, I really want to quit UPM, going somewhere else to further my studies, overseas perhaps, hoping that this somewhere will be able to fulfill my passion and ambition for recognitions and achievements. Instead, I stayed. Slowly, the environment in UPM and the events that took place in my life changed me. Grades never fail to drop each semester, the end of my 2 years relationship with her, grandparents fell ill, the death of my uncle in law. At that time, I feel that my life sucks a lot. Things are not working out for me at all. Luckily, kamisama granted me with one thing. Friends. U guys and gals. Both university and hometown friends. Without u guys, I don’t think I’ll ever make it till today. Thanks for making my life more colourful and memorable. Thanks for being there for me when I needed someone. Thanks for letting me whine/bitched at you guys, like everyday? Lol. Allow me to wish u guys a happy new year. May the year of 2008 brings more pleasant memories of us together. Capture it with camera if you like, but I’ll prefer to capture the memories that we’re going to have in my heart. Cheers! Beers anyone?