How could you have left me when i still feel you in my heart?

I wish you all the best. Perhaps its really time to move on. Only time will tell if I can.

我用餘生去你的愛

我输了

我输了

一败涂地

一年了，我还是输给你。


My shooting star

我愿意

思念是一种很玄的东西
如影~随形
无声又无息出没在心底
转眼~吞没我在寂默里
我无力抗拒特别是夜里喔~
想你到无法呼吸
恨不能立即朝你狂奔去
大声的告诉你~
愿意为你我愿意为你
我愿意为你忘记我姓名
就算多一秒停留在你怀里
失去世界也不可惜
我愿意为你我愿意为你
我愿意为你被放逐天际
只要你真心拿爱与我回应
什么都愿意
什么都愿意为你

祝云好

聽　你不斷呼叫我
劃破寧靜我的心下墮
在難過　講不出愛沒結果
口和唇緊緊閉鎖

看　也一話都不說
害怕連累你一生日月
憾無缺　只差跟你曾遇過
給過你太多波折

寧願沒擁抱共你可到老
任由你來去自如在我心底仍愛慕
如若碰到　他比我好
只望停在遠處　祝君安好
雖不可親口細訴

說　太多話我想說
但我還是要啞口道別任由我天空海闊流翔去
只要你白似冰雪

寧願沒擁抱共你可到老
任由你來去自如在我心底仍愛慕
如若碰到　他比我好
只望停在遠處　祝君安好
雖不可親口細訴

寧願沒擁抱共你能夠終老
任由你來去自如在我心底仍愛慕
如若碰到　他比我好
只望停在遠處　祝君安好
多麼想親口細訴

A way of life

"Some said that he died of his wounds, the other that he went back to his own
Country, but I think, he may have at last, found some small measure of peace, that we all seek, and few of us find"

"The perfect blossom is a rare thing. You could spend your life looking for one, and it will not be a wasted life"

How long does it take?

想你的夜

分手那天
Fen shou na tian
我看着你走远
Wo kan zhe ni zou yuan
所有承诺化成了句点
Suo you cheng nuo huan cheng le ju dian
独自守在空荡的房间
Du zi shou zai kong dang de fang jian
爱与痛在我心里纠缠
Ai yu tong zai wo xin li jiu chan

**
我们的爱走到了今天
Wo men de ai zou dao le jin tian
是不是我太自私了一点
Shi bu shi wo tai zi si le yi dian
如果爱可以重来
Ru guo ai ke yi chong lai
我会为你放弃一切
Wo hui wei ni fang qi yi qie

[Chorus]
想你的夜
Xiang ni de ye
多希望你能在我身边
Duo xi wang ni neng zai wo shen bian
不知道你心里还能否为我改变
Bu zhi dao ni xin li hai neng fou wei wo gai bian
想你的夜
Xiang ni de ye
求你让我再爱你一遍
Qiu ni rang wo zai ai ni yi bian
让爱再回到原点
Rang ai zai hui dao yuan dian

Aftermath

Back here again after more than 6 & 1/2 years.

Quoting my friend , glass shattered, but you still make me smile.

Like a descendant from the sky,
you appeared,
my angel, my shooting star.
Steps by steps,
as u edged closer,
the sight of you,
took my breath away.
Such a look,
I'd die a thousand times,
just to have another glimpse of it.
Then u left,
without a chance,
for me to bid farewell.
A fortnight,
a fortnight before the next sighting,
a fortnight, which crafts the 3 words deeper in my heart,
a fornight, i can't imagine how long it actually means to me.

When it bites

Sigh.

It hit me hard. Perhaps it's a waking call for me. To remind me that i need to buckle up.
Will I?
Well for a start my car doesn't even has a buckle seat, so how am i supposed to buckle up for the coming challenges in my race track?
Looks like its going to be a one way road to hell.
God, please give me the strength for the remaining 2 laps.
God, I want to make them proud.

Can I?
I can only hope, and try harder.

* What can you see if a glass with half its volume filled with water is placed in front of you?

I see a half empty glass now.

When things turn from bad to worse

:(

And I miss you so

The title says it all.

A big day for me today i suppose.
Wait...
What significance does it brings when my loved ones aren't here?
No significance at all.
Happy birthday to me for the 23rd time.
Cheers.

"In the effort of reaching the moon, man failed to see the flower that blossomed at their feet"



How often is it that in life, we come across this thing called love? How often isit that we are presented with the opportunity to love a soul whole heartledly, and to be loved equally in return? Well, I would say that it varies with every person. Some might have the opportunities to do so, some might just have one, some didn't have the chance at all. Love like this, doesn't come calling at our doorsteps everday. So when we are presented with the chance like this, do yourself a favour and grab it. Embrace the opportunity given to us, not denying it.
One shouldn't stop him/herself from accepting love, and giving love, for this is a sin. Denying yourself one of the most beautiful thing in the world, if not the most beautiful will simply cause more suffering to yourself. Why do that? Why torture yourself? Are you afraid of the bad consequences that might arrive later? It doesn't really matter.
We, as a human, have three things that matters in our life. The past, the present and the future.
The past, is the events that has happened in our life, and nothing that we can do now can change any of it. We can only learn from the events that took place in our life, in order to become a better person. If we've failed in our love relationship, learn from it, so that we can love better in the future. By giving out love, then only we will receive.
The future, is something rather unpredictable in our life. You won't know what will happen in the next second of your life, so why bother about tomorrow? Anticipate every next moment with pure anxiety and joy, and stop worrying about it.
The only thing left, is the present. Now this, is what we can do something about. If you are given the chance to love, accept it. Make a difference in your life today, as you will never know what the outcomes are. It might be a blessing in disguise, it might not. Who knows, and who cares. What matters the most is the present. What matters the most is the feelings of love that we have for each other now.
Don't deny yourself of love, for you'll bring suffering to yourself. You might even regret it, for not taking the "road not taken". You might grunt at yourself, 10 years later, for not choosing the other option.
Learn to accept. Learn to love.

I love you

Going to where she belongs

I want to go to the place where she is now.
I want to throw all the books which are beside me now, hop into my car, and just drive and drive to her, knock her door, and give her a suprise.
"baby can i hold you tonight"
The title of the song definitely suits me now.
Every cells, every tissues, every limbs, of mine are wanting it.
And the worse thing is, my subconsciouness isn't helping at all. She's practically everywhere in my life now.
I see her in the mirror where i shaved, i see her sitting in front of me at my dining table, i see her sitting right beside me in the passenger seat when i'm driving.
Sigh~
have to study. Control engineering is definitely killing me now.
Miss her so much.
I'm totalled.
ok. have to get back to my books.

There's absolutely no word that can describe my feelings now. The feeling is just so.... overwhelming.

sh4msul m4k c1b41

I seriously don't understand at all. How the hell these bugger, this low life useless that's not even worth a life organism even make it into un1v3rs1t1 putr4 m4l4ys14. You must be wondering who am i referring to. Here's our lead actor for tonight.

un1v3rs1t1 putr4 m4l4ys14 3ng1n33r1ng f4culty's d3puty d34n 0f d3v3l0pm3nt, sh4msul m4k c1b41
This fella over here, is one of the most hated figures in our faculty. In cantonese idiom, we can describe him as "tengok belakang dia pun sudah benci depan dia"
Of course, his front look is the worst. There's not way anyone can deny how fugly he looks, at least to me. Why do i hate him so much?
Simple. Coz this bugger over here, happens to think that he's the smartest person alive on earth. yea right. Kiss my ass la. If you're the smartest person on earth, i'll be the 1st to "play your shoe".
Forget how grumpy you were everything we approach you for any approvals. Forget how fucking smelly your breath is everytime we talked to you. Forget how you look like an ass everytime we laid our eyes on you. But yesterday was the threshold of everything. Come on la nia seng.
We've decided to put up with ur theaterics, and invited you to our dinner. Just give some stupid ucapan, and go eat ur kambing la for fuck sake. Whats the need to condemn us when everyone's in the good mood? Who the hell do you think you are? PM? If i ask you to play "who has the biggest brain now", i'm fucking sure your points wont exceed 1.2k cm2. Yes, u fucking ass.
Well, i can't blame him too much. He's just too folly to think that by making everyone hates him, he's superior. An ass will forever be an ass. No use trying to change a shit on him. He'll still be, sh4msul m4k c1b41.

71 words

It has been confirmed. My worst fear is here. I'm officially "poisoned" yet again.

Everytime i sign in my msn, i'll search for that stupid girl's name.
Everytime my phone rings, i hope it's the big ugly bird.
Everytime i received a message, i pray that it's from the small brain aves.
Everytime i passed her faculty, i'll look out for the stupid flying rock.

Her ulti is so ................................ "gay"

F**k.